Tired, so tired.

I hate being unable to settle. If someone comes with a suggestion, I might be thrilled about it or planely hate it. Whatever my answer might be, there's a great risk that I've changed my mind about it the next day. Probably even changing my mind not just one time, but several a day.
Also I've also started to experience trouble with my memory. My two dear friends, Kimberley and Ulrika visited me yesterday, and when Ulrika asked me if I had been partying the past weekend, I could honestly not remember what I had spent my weekend doing.
It was the same thing a few days ago when I went with Joackim to his mother's house and she asked me what we had been doing the day before. My mind was completely blank, and I had to tell her that I honestly didn't have a clue. That felt quite embarrassing, probably could've given the impression that I had been drinking an amount of liqeur so big yesterday that my memory about it now was a big, blank fuzz. And well, that's not quite the impression I would like to give the mother of my boyfriend.
I guess I need a big change, don't know in what form however.
It feels like I'm under a big cloud of pressure. And it feels like it's coming from all directions.
My dad, my family, my boyfriend, my friends, from school... I'm so tired right now, I just want to hurdle up in a corner and rock myself to sleep.