Immense comeback. Oh wait, what does immense mean?

Woah, I'm back.
Probably not for long. But at least I made the effort to write this entry. At least that has to be worth something, right?
In the days that have past I've been studying, had mood swings out of this world, been playing some Legend of Legaia, noobed around on Facebook and... talked. And placed kisses all over my dear boyfriend's face of course.
Soo... There was a quick update! YEEEEY!

I feel like downloading "My life as Liz". It's kind of different, and cute. And well, I can't help but wanting to see how it goes with her and Bryson! They're both so freakin' cute, shy and naive. I hope they don't miss out on each other in the end just because they're so quick to jump to conclusions! And oh, The hard times of RJ Berger is also so fun! The whole idea and the execution of it - awesome!

Anyway, I don't have much more to say right now. So I'll round this shit up before I start talking about stuff like why the sky's blue and why my blanket is soft etc.
So g'night y'all! :P

Proud, weird, piece of shit.

I write for my own personal entertainment. I noticed that since no one barely comment anything I write. Of course, I could take this as I am a weird piece of shit who people prefer staying away from, but seriously: If that is the case, why waste the energy to be bothered by it? If I am a weird piece of shit, then I will be the proudest damn piece of shit you ever saw!

Open your eyes! Don't judge people upon one, single event.

Oh fuck. Yet again I'm an awful blogger. Well, I guess this just means the end of it. Or maybe not.

I don't know if I have much interesting to mention. Oh yeah! I can bitch some about an absolutely chocking experience I had the other day. It's a chock and a grande dilemma. I must tell you all about it.
The other day I was sitting, incredibly innocent, on Facebook and just doing my thing, when I noticed... Somebody made a status update saying that the mosque being built by ground zero (the place of 9/11) was immoral. I felt that "I have some straight-settening to do!", and so I asked why this was immoral. A friend of his, who apparantly had lost her uncle in the tragedy, then as a reply kept asking me if I was joking and said that all Muslims should die. When I replied that we can't blame all Muslims for what happened, and that if we - based on 9/11 - should kill all Muslims then we should at least kill all Christians and Catholics because of the "holy" crusades and all the child abuse commited by Catholic priests. The reply I received was that I was stupid and that all Muslims should be nuked, then she asked if I lived in a cave. Before I even saw this last reply, she wrote another saying "Oh so you live in Sweden... Jesus". But, before I had a chance to reply she had deleted everything she ever commented. And now my counter-comment is all alone on that Facebook-status, all naked and exposed to the world. Without anyone being able to see what I replied to.
And folks, this upsets me endlessly. Or well, it has an end, but whatever. What annoys me the most are two things:
1. The fact that she didn't have any arguments whatsoever, except that her uncle died in 9/11 (I'm sorry that he died, but her prejudice against Muslims won't help her, the Muslims OR her uncle).
2. That she showed such attitude towards me, and insinuated that I was stupid because I come from Sweden. That just makes me boil inside! Especially since her own comments were so darn stupid, and didn't make any sense. Get an education instead of judging people based on which countries they are from or what religion they have, you twat!

Nicolette have(has? my grammar sucks!) spoken!

Yey... :(

Today I received my blueberry pie lipgloss - which really does smell like blueberry pie! Which, probably, will make my sweetheart a bit happy as he LOOVES blueberries.

Anyhow... I got some things to do. And I think I just might get into the programme in Gotland. For even though I haven't got the results yet, I noticed that my merit score for that programme is high. So if it wasn't for the fact that I made a delayed application I would have been 99% sure that I'd get in. Anyway... it's not yet decided that if I get in I will go to Gotland. If the appartment I checked out is still available THEN I will go for sure. My future in Gotland is waiting for me, and this is an oppurtunity I just can't miss. Even though it means I have to be away from my friends, family and boyfriend for almost 3 years in a row... :(

in General ~

Hm, I've noticed that my begging for a Dreamweaver-donation didn't work as I would have liked. Well well, life goes on! I'm not quite in the mood for studying right now, but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do so me and my dear sister will head for the library in a short while to get some work done! :) The only thing is that I just might be wanting to read books that aren't related to what I'm going there for... But hopefully I'll manage to resist, a/o Felicia will keep me from following my "bad reading"-urges. What else is there to write... Hm hm... Not much. I wish I had loads of money so that I could go on a vacation somewhere. Like to the US or some jungle somewhere and stare at(or pretend to be) exotic animals.

I can't wait to see my sweetie either. Will see him this weekend, as usual. Can't believe how I can miss someone this much, but I guess that's the way it is when you are REALLY bored with school work. (of course I miss him otherwise too)
Found some pictures of him from like... last summer/fall. Think I'll upload them to my computer before continuing with my work :)

Donation

I've started to consider remaking my blog into a more personal little... creation of my own, BUT... I lack the skills! :< Yeah, I got an A+ and I feel that I can't make a good layout for my pooooor little blog. And why? Because I am trained in Dreamweaver! Do I have dreamweaver? Oh no, no. If I had, then I could have made a completely awesome blog sample and then just copy all the code and put it in here, and hence get my super-awesome-personal-and-creative blog! But now, reality does not look like that. Therefore I am now asking all of you... Please donate Dreamweaver to me! :> It will help me get an awesome career one day, and I'll offer to make you your very own website! You can't say no to that offer, now can you?!


For information on where to send your donation, send a mail to this adress: nicopico89@hotmail.com!

Disgusting.

I was just doing some homework when I came across the word chimera. I couldn't help myself but to look up pictures on chimeras, and then I found a picture of a "turkey chimera". I looked it up and found a website with the works of three taxidermists, and I must say... their works are REALLY creapy! No, actually, they're not just creepy. They're repulsive and disrespectful. I feel quite odd about it, because I am of the opinion that any type of art, no matter how morbid, should be allowed. But those works... They started to get too much, even for me. I looked through all the pictures, but not without feeling great discomfort. In their works they used carcasses of different animals. In one of the pictures they put a number of skinned animal carcasses and put them in unnatural positions. For instance, one couple of skinned squirrels are "dancing" with each other and another pair of squirrels are boxing each other. However, some works were a liiiittle more OK. Still, a majority of the pictures were experiments where they've taken parts of different animals and put them together to look like a different type of chimera. In case you feel that you have a REALLY STRONG stomach, here's a link to the website: Minnesota Association of Rogue Taxidermists/chimera.

However, now I have checked the website's homepage and cannot find the page in the previous link. But I found Sarina Brewer (who I thought was the best of those three taxidermists) and the pages about her works. The category "Fantasy works" is clearly my favorite of her categories. Her page still contain pictures that are... well, not nice if you don't like looking at dead animals, but still seems more professional than the previous page mentioned. Here's a link to her page: Custom Creature Taxidermy : Sarina Brewer.

Gotland... Gothland...

Okey. Things are like this: I've applied for an education on Gotland (Swedish island). It's for programming and designing games and lasts for about 3 years. I don't know if I'm accepted yet, but if I am, I've already found a vacant student appartment. It's rent is quite alright. Broadband, electricity, heat and water is included in the price, which feels pretty good. But of course... I'm getting real, freakin' nervous!!! I don't want to move away from Ystad, my family, boyfriend or friends :( I don't want to! But at the same time I want to get to try on living in my own appartment, seeing and discovering a new place, getting a nice education and meeting new people. Also I get to prove to myself that I can do this on my own. Though it'll hurt if I fail utterly...
Hm... I guess I should just stay positive! :)

Rashes.

I've started to get rashes on my left arm with even intervals this past 1 ½ weeks. It's those kinds of rashes you get when you're allergic to something. For instance when I was in a muggy (is that really the corret word?) room with a cat or more, I'd get those on my arms especially after I patted one. The thing is that I haven't got any cats or any other furry creature in my enivironment (except a neighbours' cats, but I rarely see them). I only get these rashes on my left forearm, nowhere else. Right now I have two options: Either it's some shampoo I'm using or it might be the medication I got for my ears (I had/have "auditory canal eczema", as Google's language tool translated it). The medication is something I'm only going to take for another 2-3 days, and then it's outta the house. I guess I'll see if the rashes have stopped coming back by then. After all, the only suffering I'm experiencing right now is a little itching on the rash while it's there. When it's gone I don't feel a thing. So... Guess I'll put up with it!

Funny. *neeheehehehe*

Something is telling me that I am very tired... Well, not too weird since I fell asleep about 4-5 in the morning and woke up at 11. Anyway... I just watched this clip, and I find it so funny. The weird part is probably that I basically only laugh at the last 50 seconds, when this guys app repeats whatever he says. It's a kind of childish humor I'm experiencing right now :) In case you want to know what the heck I'm talking about, here's the vid:



(Btw, the clip is from YouTube and called "KE$HA & MY BAWLS?". Made by "http://www.youtube.com/user/ShaneDawsonTV2".

"Two Lovers".

Yay, it's time for another happy-go-lucky blog post! Wieee!

Anyway, I don't have much to say right now. Or maybe I do, but I don't got the time to do so.
What I am going to share this time is my reflections on a movie I saw with Felicia yesterday. The movie is called "Two Lovers", and the main character is called Leonard Kraditor (played by Joaquin Phoenix). If you don't want to hear any spoilers, please skip down to next section of text. During most of the film I didn't know if I should like or dislike Leonard. He do have a lot of positive qualities, but at the same time he's very... peculiar, or how you prefer to express it. He's very caring and quite outgoing, but at the same time he's withdrawn and with his head up in the blue. The whole movie starts with a distant female voice telling him that she loves him but she has to go. And then we see him jump from a bridge (those you see in a harbour). However, he changes his mind while in the water and gets rescued by a bunch of men who come when they hear his cry for help. So in that way we understand that he's suicidal, but he don't really want to die. The movie goes on, and we see that he lives at home with his folks. The family are friends with another family, and they have a daughter in Leonard's age called Sandra. Obviously Sandra have been liking Leonard for a shorter while, which she's not particulary shy about. Leonard likes her as well, but not as much as she likes him. He makes plans for a date with her, and then... BOOM! Michelle (played by Gwyneth Paltrow) shows up and Leonard is hooked. This doesn't stop him from continuing to date Sandra. And THIS is what I don't like about Leonard. He has a tremendous crush on Michelle, but he chooses not to tell Sandra that he's in love with someone else. He's not being honest to Sandra, and that really buggs me since she just want to take care of Leonard and want him to like her. She even asks once if he really likes her, and then he says that he does like her and then they have sex. And not in a pretty way! Actually, the two times he have sex during the movie I get really disgusted. He's really caring about Michelle, but at the same time he totally ignores her feelings. For instance, at one time in the story Michelle have just broken up with her boyfriend and meets up with Leonard. She tells him she's really confused and that she's going to San Francisco to think about things. Leonard tells her not to because he loves her. He goes on about how he loves her and that he'd never leave her. She's still confused by all her feelings and says so, then he walks up to her and kisses her and suddenly, while standing up, it seems like he's actually having sex with her. And it's all over in a few minutes. They decide to elope to San Francisco, and decide to meet up on New Year's Eve to take a flight. Until then Leonard goes and buy her an engagement ring. And what I'm wondering here is... What the hell is he thinking?! That is not to respect another person's feelings. That's just egoistic and idiotic and God knows what. I feel like slapping him in the face. I mean... Not only is he such an idiot to do all that, at the same time he have a girlfriend and he plans to leave home, friends, family and girlfriend just like that, on impulse! I do have to give credit since it's quite an original movie. And it's not often that you do dislike the main character. Anyway, I hated watching the movie. It made me depressed, and I really hate Leonard.

I have to go now. Going to go to the library with my dear sister :)
Buh bye!

Contemplating.

Sometimes I reflect on a lot of things... Or well, not sometimes. I can't say all the time, because that would mean that I don't do anything but think. And that is not true - I also eat, watch television, write and place kisses on various places on my boyfriend, such as his cheeks. Anyway, I constantly contemplate on things that I shouldn't think of. I rather not say what particular things, in fear of seeming too... Odd, or just plain stupid. To reflect on these things are, in ways, a painful occupation. But I've also found that I often enjoy myself when I contemplate. Making things more complicated than they really are, is fun. You learn, more about yourself as well as your surroundings. But at the same time you get so much more confused. I find that I can't really trust that a rock is just a rock, that the Judgement Day doesn't exist or that my eyes don't fool me when they tell me that my chair is blue and not a mix of other colors. It also makes me wonder if love is really love, or if it's just an euphoric feeling we experience when we meet someone who meet our needs a.o. expectations. And when I say needs, I mean needs such as someone to take care for, someone who makes us feel loved, someone who gives us excitment (etcetera).
As I've written this post, I've had a great lot on my mind. I've though about theories on love, I've thought about how to be in order to be perfect. And now I'm starting to feel messed up again - something that I'm not quite happy about. So I think I'll just end this post here and now before it goes out of hand.

Assignment

Whow, here comes another of Nicolette's tremendous posts! In such short notice! I'm impressed with myself.

Today I gave up the job. I think I did the right decision. I THINK. Anyway, I have this week to work and then I am "free to go". I felt a lot of pressure. Not much more I need to explain right here and now. If you want to know about it - ask.

I had one class today. Webdesign. And I must say, it felt awesome! One of the teachers... Well, I didn't get a good feeling from him last time, but that impression changed a bit today. Jolly good I say. And THANK GOD I didn't take him too seriously this time. Which is quite odd since I was (and am) so darn tired I could've fallen asleep right there and then.

For my English C course, I already have one assignment. Or to be more exact: Two - until Friday. We're going to have a Project of our own choice. Just like the Projektarbete we had at high school, where we are supposed to write a paper on it. Last time she wanted us to already have ideas on what to work on. Having a question to be answered and all. And I had no idea whatsoever! All I figured out was that maybe I could write something on migration and/or racism. Since she suggested we'd do something based on our interests. It was either migration/racism or something on video games! And which one sounds more serious?
Either way, she wants us to have written a sketch of our final idea until midnight between Thursday and Friday! I have no clue what I can try to find out with migration!
The two ideas I have so far are:
- Writing how it is to move to a new country, about experiences and such.
- How reporters/journalists portrait immigrants(/emigrants)

If I'd choose the first idea I just might be able to interview my very good friend Nicole who's in Ireland 0:) But I'd need more sources! And preferably in English! Oh gosh, what to do, what to do!

Apart from this, we have this assignment to find an article in News Week and present it to the class - in our own words and in English. Shouldn't be too hard. But the project sure is! I want to have a good idea, since she's going to look it over and have questions on it!

So if anyone have an idea that they'd like to share - comment here or e-mail me!
My mail is: nicopico89@hotmail.com

Ta-ta!

Safety Consult

I feel... That now it's gone an even bigger while since my last post!
What can I say... Now I'm a "säkerhetskonsult" which I don't know the correct translation for... But if I am to translate it I'll say "safety consult". Which basically means that I knock on house and villa doors, in my attempt to book meetings with people to sell them our highly advantageous(here I seriously doubt the abilities of Google's language translator) alarm package.
It's simple: I get paid for each package I sell. If I don't sell anything: I get nothing!

And tomorrow, I've obviously succeeded in booking one of those meetings with my English teacher. With which I'm having my first class on Friday! I really hope that our meeting won't have any negative effect on my grades... But she seemed nice! I'll just have to try to give her an alarm offer she can't refuse! (and I only have one offer available)

Anyway... My employment is not final. Or how you'd put it. It's, as Google express it, a probation. Which means I am employed on a trial until June, and then we'll see if they want me! (or if I want them as employers)
God blast, I want and I NEED a car license.


Oh, and my cell won't recharge. So I can't use the wondrous cell phone I received from Jocke. It's a real shame, it's one of the best I've ever had. But it might just be that I need a new recharger, or have to change batteries. And therefore I'll head down to Onoff tomorrow! :D (or someday sooooooon!)
But 'til then I'll just use some crap, that someone must've decided to call a cellular phone for an unknown reason :) Which basically means that it'll probably weigh about 10kg :)

And with that I bid thee farewell! (for now)